Quiet Drama

The last few weeks have been very up and down for me here at home. Dealing with unnecessary drama from my mom and older brothers. The drama has become quieter against me as I do everything I can to not give them an excuse to give me lip about anything. Its just the only solution for me. How can you reason with people that are anything but? So, Lily and I can have a little peace at least. 


My Project 365 has been squashed. Last week was filled with so much drama that I was way too distracted to keep up with my daily photos. I really thought I would get far with it. I'm just going to have to start all over again. :( I've been having to hide my camera from my oldest brother too. Geeze. 


I've been thinking about my direction with blogging. I think that since my life has been so unstable and unpredictable lately, its not realistic to expect my blogging to be anything as marvelous as it once was. My posts are pretty much a reflection of how my life is going at the time. So I will leave it at that. Whatever randomness I produce is what you get. He he. 


I wish I had a photo to share, but I'm blogging from Word, which doesn't let me. Blogger is currently not letting me post due to the overloaded internet connection of mine. Ugh. More later! :D

Feeling Half Inspired

So I have been feeling like I have so much to share, but no steady way of sharing it all. Photography, recipes, poetry, videos, news, etc. It used to be easier. Just post the day's photo, write about what happened and that was it. I guess I just can't keep up with that style anymore because each day is unpredictable for me. Thus the unpredictability of my posting here. I've had other blogs, but none as successful as this one. So I may just end up keeping it forever.

Zines, email newsletters, blogs and sites. Every which way I've tried just doesn't stick. Right now, my life is not filled with anything too interesting. Then again I can make anything uninteresting jump out at you. But lately I have not been so inspired to do so. I'm struggling with decisions to let certain things known about my life. As much as I want to pour it all out there.


Life is pretty erratic these days for Lily and I. That's all I can really say about it. Until I can figure a way to share my journey with you all in a stable way, I will continue to try and figure it out. :D

Meaning Well

There are those who like to say things because they mean well, or to seem like they do. I just can't wrap my head around those that do so without following through with what they say. I particularly don't like it when people say things just to say them anyway. When it carries a little more weight is when it is taken more seriously.

I believe that if you don't mean what you say, are not going to do what you say you will, or are not going to try to do what you say you want to; you should not even bother mentioning it. Save yourself some embarrassment and distrust. Mean what you say, carry through on it, and people will count on you that much more.

Why be dishonest? Really? It doesn't do anything marvelous for you. Whether you are a friend, husband, wife, family member, colleague, etc., its not worth it to tickle someone's ears when it has the potential to hurt them. I feel bad for the people in my life I've seen become so disappointed in others for their lack of true consideration for them. Its a shame that the majority of people, at least that I have encountered, do this. I usually let people's statements of meaning well go through one ear and out the other. Not because I could care less, but because if I took them serious, my world would be filled with disappointment.

I've learned a lesson in honesty. When you live dishonestly, nothing goes right for you. No matter how small the dishonesty is. You may think you are enjoying the fruit of dishonesty now, but in the long run, it will not have been worth it. You simply can't go wrong in living honestly with yourself and others.

So don't go giving people empty promises, tickling their ears, and sugarcoating what you say. Follow through on what you mean.

The photo in this entry is Being Comforted.

Changing it Up

Once again I return from a long break. I really don't think I will ever be more comfortable blogging elsewhere. This is the spot for me. :)

Since the last post I have worked on building my photography site, becoming more social on Facebook, and organizing my photos on Flickr. My entire photo collection has grown to over 24,000 photos. I have established my photography business and am reaching out more to potential clients. My income has decreased but I've still got my head above water.

Lily started walking at 13 months and hasn't looked back since. Miguel still has about 6 months left in his sentence. I was going to attend college this Spring, but can't due to lack of resources. Long story. Still living for God, but my attendance at church has dwindled as well. I so need a car. He he.

My brother Peter was released from jail, I turned 24, and have made a lot of new friends. Not much else is going on. I have taxes to look forward to, the spring weather, and potty training Lily. Oh such fun. He he. Stay tuned for new photography, I'm participating in Project 365 this year. :D

The photo in this entry is Reflective Beauty.